If you are searching for authenticity in your life, you may eventually discover that this is just another sneaky way of putting up more boundaries to separate this from that. Some experiences are considered special or ‘it’, and others are considered inauthentic, wrong, or not ‘it’. In this play of experience, all experiences, without exception, are equally authentic, or in fact equally inauthentic.
However, some experiences seem to be sweet reflections of your true nature beyond the thinking: a walk in nature, a melting into a lover’s eyes, a blissful moment in meditation or dance, or just a random moment when thoughts seem to fall away. When these sweet gifts happen, see them as pointers to who you are, and don’t get distracted by the sweet experience that is only ever temporary and always unreliable.
When we start to believe that this experience is ‘it’, we immediately get excited that we have arrived at our spiritual goal. We immediately start to look down on all other experiences with great superiority, as ‘not it’. So as soon as the experience of ‘it’ passes, as all experiences do eventually, we assume we have lost ‘it’. But you never had ‘it’. You never had anything. It was just a passing sweet gift. Be grateful for whatever insight it brought, and let it go. It is already gone anyway.
Who you really are is never an experience of authenticity. It is never an experience at all. It can not be got and it can not be lost. This is the freedom beyond all experience.
Unmani
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